I wish one day I could honestly tell someone that I wasn’t feeling ‘fine’ or ‘okay’.

It’s like shit man, why can’t I just be close to someone and tell them when I’m having a bad day? Why can’t people just be honest to me about how they feel without having to ask their friends for opinions or inputs?  Why can’t I just put my confidence in somebody that I know won’t judge me for what I’m thinking, or tell other people my personal thoughts? Everybody just likes to talk freely about other people’s personal lives nowadays. I just wish I had somebody that would  enjoy my company when we each have nothing better to do, or I could tell them my thoughts without the fear of scaring them away. Honestly, I just want to find someone that I could spend my time with to the point where we wouldn’t even have to do anything because we would just be satisfied with the fact that we were in each other’s company. I really do ask for too much at times.

Keep dreaming Alvin.